After connecting all the dots of unfortunate events, it dawned on me that I was just making a complete fool of myself.
I was just seeing a one-way mirror. I was only seeing myself and feeling what I wanted to feel. And then there is this song… “Little by little everywhere, little by little anywhere. ____ is watching me.”
Accepting it little by little. Just little by little everyday. Perhaps I was seeing so much red the first week, then so much darkness the next week… and little by little I saw green, pink, purple and cream. I saw that there are a much and more hues in this earth that I can ever imagine.
I was in deep thoughts. I belittled myself… and more than just shame, I felt so lowly. But then again, it was just me who was thinking about it. And now, I wouldn’t let any drastic action to happen again. I wanna start anew.
I pulled my own puzzle. I had my questions answered. It was a sweet discovery. A feeling of triumph. As if winning from boards one to four in a scrabble competition. I had all my tiles spread and now I saw the tiles across… each tile dropped was a letter of discovery. I knew my opponent now. I can read each move. Each words, I anticipated. I just have to minimize our spreads.
I could not just bask comfortably now. I have to fix myself. There has been so much lies and i wasn't even aware of it...
Less pain now… As they say, the brain’s on top of the heart.
I was just seeing a one-way mirror. I was only seeing myself and feeling what I wanted to feel. And then there is this song… “Little by little everywhere, little by little anywhere. ____ is watching me.”
Accepting it little by little. Just little by little everyday. Perhaps I was seeing so much red the first week, then so much darkness the next week… and little by little I saw green, pink, purple and cream. I saw that there are a much and more hues in this earth that I can ever imagine.
I was in deep thoughts. I belittled myself… and more than just shame, I felt so lowly. But then again, it was just me who was thinking about it. And now, I wouldn’t let any drastic action to happen again. I wanna start anew.
I pulled my own puzzle. I had my questions answered. It was a sweet discovery. A feeling of triumph. As if winning from boards one to four in a scrabble competition. I had all my tiles spread and now I saw the tiles across… each tile dropped was a letter of discovery. I knew my opponent now. I can read each move. Each words, I anticipated. I just have to minimize our spreads.
I could not just bask comfortably now. I have to fix myself. There has been so much lies and i wasn't even aware of it...
Less pain now… As they say, the brain’s on top of the heart.
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