Life Goes On

There were tears again last night. Then I woke up at 3am today feeling so empty. I was wide awake for an hour.Then there were memories again. I wanted to talk to him. Let him know what happened for the day. I missed talking with him. Seeing him listening to me. I hated him.

A few minutes after I arrived in the office, I received a txt mssg from Sir Edwin:

Life is short. Grudges spoil happiness. Laugh when you can. Apologize when you should. Let go of what you cant change. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances. Have no regrets. Take the good with bad. Smile when you are sad. Love what you have. Learn from mistakes. People change and things go wrong. But always remember, life goes on. (smiley) - ECG 03.09.07 7:52am

That's just it.

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I wanted to watch a movie today, but then again, I just don't wanna be alone. I'm hoping that I could be at least happy now... start from scratch.

I hope I could believe in what I've written. On what I've spoken. I just hope I could get through this depression. Everything's so different inside. Empty. And it gives me headache. I should not lose my appetite. I have to eat on time. But then again, pwede maAmnesia na lang?

Facing the PC the wholde day and hoping that there would be no one to interrupt my silent prayers, I kept myself busy. Jenel gave me a pretty notepad last night and all I can do was to smile because I couldn't use it. There is no one to write letters for. I felt so disabled.

Ok. I have to stop this. I have to put an end to those stupid memories. It won't do me any good. Life must go on. Blog life. Skype contacts that were kept on coming from Korea, China and Batangas. F8's YM online alert that catches my 50/75 vision allowing me to take some seconds off from the minutes that I busied with. And of course Almira's plans in going to Dubai and now Gio's plan on migrating to New Zealand with her. Sigh! I wish her luck. And oh! this morning, that new sales and marketing guy of ECONOGAS shook the innocence of the not-so-techie minds of my officemates when he showed this shokoy photos that were allegedly been caught in Talisay City, Cebu. Yep! Cebu daw! And he reminded us to wash all newly brought undergarments to avoid worms seeking shelter in our boobs. He must still have his 10pm hang-over with the boss last night. And yeah, Gabz saw me cry. But he seems unAffected. I thought it's his weakness to see women cry. Back to Almira, she received an invitation from SM. I suggested that she take the invitation. It's just an assessment anyway.

Go neopets. I missed them. Bukikoy, Pooffypoo and i-forgot-the-name-of that-meerca has been left in the Neolodge for 25 days. I haven't checked them yet. Sigh!

Forget him. Forget him. Forget him. He forgot you already.