Those Familiar Grounds

I arrived so early to day here in the office! I still have a lot of things to do today before the boss arrives. Now I am sure what to do unlike before where I could not think right.

I am going out alone tonight. And I am so excited. Today is the start that I am going out alone. Walk alone. Eat alone. Expect no one. No text messages. No cares. No calls.

I am so glad I was able to hang out with Bernie, Jeza and Alex. And how I miss UP sa much. The campus still looks the same except for the students walking in the catwalk as I passed by. My heart tightened a bit, for what reason I do not know.

Bernie is still with the same bhouse. The same bhouse where our friendship grew. Where laughters and tears began. Ideas flourished and misunderstandings occured.

I am so happy to see Jeza and ALex together. It reminds me of us. bUT THEN AGAIN, I should drop that hope I am holding on. I can manage. They say that one of this days, I can be alright. I can be myself again. I dropped by last night, borrowed some of his stuffs. And as much as I wanted to hug him, I refrained myself. We are just friends on which level I stll don't know. There are times when I feel hate and then love and back to hate. I'm not sosure what to do now but for sure this would pass. I can make myself whole again. Normal ra daw ko na tawo ingo si Jeza, and I trust her words.

Can't contain myself to see those city lights tonight.